"bork bork bork" - the sweedish chef


Gods what a long damned month it's been. So many things were going right and then as would seem to be my and so many others lots in life it all came tumbling down.

Well i got into DEEP finacial shit in early august but My step father pulled my ass outta the fire ont hat one along with my bud and my real father. So all was well for a week or so. Then my vacation just dragged on i swear i did NOTHING on my vacation. not one damned thing. Not cause i did;nt have the money but rather cause i lacked anyone to do anything with so i ended up getting drunk most nights just to make them easier to bear.

Spent alot of time on here though i really only browsed. Wrote a poem or two that sorta thing. Oh and speaking of on here since i know no other way to contact her. Amber yes i checked your damned Devart page nearly everyday for a week or two in the small hopes you would have posted something interesting I am not account stalking you miss go in and change someone elses account.

Anyway yeah i thought i was all caught up in my bills. Turns out my insurance didn't pay a rather large portion of my dental bill so suddenly i owe another 700$ that just about what i managed to pay off on other various bills when i got that infusion of money from people. So i am right back where i started a month ago as far as finances.

Anyway as per the title of this journal my friend Adam leaves for bootcamp in the morning. Gonna miss him was always fun to hang with. IN another way i am jealous of him cause he's out there getting started on his Navy career while i am still stuck here hoping to get reclassified and still working the same damned job i can barely stand anymore. SOOOOO looking forward to leaving.

Yeah i guess i am just getting lonely again. I mean it's not like i do abouslutly nothing ever hell i just spent like 4 hours on battlefield 1942 with some buds from work. It's just i wanna be out and about doing things going places hanging out with people in person. But really the only people who wanna hang out with me more than once in a while are mostly people i can't stand for very long.

Anyway not meaning to sound depressing or upset i really don;t wanna be that way just right now i feel very alone. And it really does'nt help when i am like this there are so few people that can make me feel better < that i know of > One is to busy hating my guts,one is just to busy with his life in general and works long hours, and the last one doesn't really have the time either. I dunno would just be great if once in a while one of these people would take more than just a short stint to hang with me. Serisouly running out of things to come up with that might be applealing to them.

Anyway i was supposed to be in bed hours ago cause i gotta work early in the AM so it's off to shower shave and call it a night.