i trek and i continue to walk this worn road
I thought perhaps in stupor i would find my abode

yet in my haze my eyes see something clear
i see the end of something, and someone that was dear

A friend always,yet the enemy forever in their eyes
I watch with but one tear as what we all had flounders and dies

i am the outcast the fiend and the bad man
yet here i stand tall and pround, the one doing all he can

I have a purpose a sense of pride and regret
You al you have gained and all you will yet

I ask only this is it worth what you lost?
a friend giving you all that is what you tosssed

Tossed and broke upon your uncaring shore
cold and unmoved not a crack you were not tore

So i sip and i watch and wait to see the end
I wonder if it's me you will sight at the bend

A bend in the road a twist in the path a loss in the way
i do not know and who is to say

That in the end you will see me as what i am and be
I pray for what it's worth and hope i will be

Not a lover and not a fiend or villan to your life
You who i loved so dear that i would have called you my wife

Yet this is where we are, you're will and my bane
I'm crippled and broken without you i'm in endless pain

I know not your thoughts yet understand you so well
In sorrow in remorse and wanting i dwell

Not to be your lover not to be your man
Only to support you in whatever way i can

Why can we not laugh and giggle and grin
why is this tradgedy determined not to be a win

Can we not smile and shake upon what we had
why in the end did you think it was so bad?

All i want is a laugh and a smile
To show in the end what we had was worth while

I've loved you since then and will till the end
To laughter to grinning to smiling my path will bend

That is why i call you and why my hope does not subside
I want not to be your man only the bonny to your clyde

And so i wait and will us to laugh and smile
And i hope you will see that as well though it may take a while

So i will call i will write and on your whim i will come
I don't demand all we had only that we keep just some

So see what you will and care how you want
My spirit and soul will always stand taunt

I wish your eyes were easily turned to me
Yet i know in my mind ad heart that it can never be

So i wait and i hope and in thes last lines i will pray
Not that we are lovers just friends with something to say

So my dear my old mate and my friend
Will you let this be it. this is all, will it be the end?

you have only to dial call or scream out my name
is will not always work yet in the end we are the same

Not in out minds our heart or our souls
Yet in some small part we can help each other not in part but in wholes

So one last time i ask only this
don't let this be the end and remember your bliss

Not perhaps mine but a part of it as well
Maybe neither of us is happy but together we can move past this hell

So in the end i say to you not for me not for you but for we
Let go of annoyance and hate and perhaps you will see